Everything is going down hill ..

It seems that by far this is my worst year yet.
It's my junior year of High School, and I am failing for the first time.
I feel overwhelmed and stressed out because of school and the load of work I know I have to do.
I feel pressured about college.
I've lost friends.
Pushed more away.
I just feel the need to be alone most of the time.
People get on my nerves more easily than ever before.
I feel so angry all of the time.
And my health has been in poor shape recently.
I got offered a job. It was the high light of my week, I had work.
No more fruitless searching.
But my dad came in and ruined all of my hopes.
I'm not allowed to work there.
Whatever.
It seems that the only thing that is constant in my life at this point in time is my happiness with Zachary.
He is the only thing to hold me up, everyday.
He's there whenever I need him.
Even though he can't be here to hold me, just to hear his voice is soothing.
I'm so thankful..
Idk, I feel like giving up on so much recently.
Yeah, I'm in a bad mood tonight.