I love..

How when we are together, everything is perfect.
We tickle fight, laugh, and enjoy each other's company.
It's too cute, so wonderful.
I love how happy he makes me.
I feel all warm and fuzzy inside just by looking at him.
I love him to pieces <3
I can't wait till the day when it's just me and him.
heheh :]

I've realized yet again..

I'm tired of revelations coming to me too late to do any good.
Maybe its not too late.
I'm trying my hardest to make things up.
I am immature, but I've grown a lot since then.
I'm trying to keep myself while molding to your ideals.
But I need you.
To be sane. To be happy.
You ARE my everything.
You are my life. You have been for two whole years now.
I cannot lose you, no matter what.
I'd rather die a zillion times the most painful deaths, than live another day without you.
I hope you see over the next few days, exactly what my heart is trying to say.

I'm too miserable for words.
I keep trying my hardest in everything, I try to be optimistic, I try my best.
And I still end up in tears.
Idk.
Things could be worse.

Story time..

My dad told me once, what happened to him during his high school years.
My dad attended Fort Pierce Westwood High School, 1983~1987.
He played just about every position on the soccer team, and he was the school goof ball.
He once told me he beat up this guy who was picking on a small Indian kid at his bus stop and got suspended for a week.
I laughed when he told me he learned all of his ideals and morals from comic book super heroes.
He also told me of the tragedies he endured towards the end of high school.
His two best friends Rodger & Gregory were out driving one day. They got into an accident, Roger was flung through the windshield, while Gregory (who was wearing his seatbelt and therefore remained in the car during impact) didn't make it. Dad was devastated.
Then, only a couple months later, another car accident claimed the life of his girlfriend who he loved very much. She played tuba in Vero Beach High School's band.
My dad mourned and mourned. He thought life would not go on.
My brother's middle name is Gregory.
Dad went off and joined the navy after high school. He was soon honorably discharged and he came home. Roger then introduced dad to my mom, who was Roger's girlfriend's(her name was Wendy) best friend. Mom & dad hit it off.
They got married in my Grandma's backyard in Lakewood Park, considering they could not afford anything more. After all, my mom was 19 & dad was 21.
One year later I came along.
I get my middle name from Batman's sidekick Robin.. only mine is spelled Robyn.
Hahah.
Dad.
Anyways. I was intending to go somewhere with all of this, but I ended up babbling. Like usual.
~Life can be short. Too short. Enjoy what you have. Work for what you want. NEVER take anything for granted. It can be gone tomorrow morning. You may never get a chance to say goodbye. Uphold your morals, live to be who you want to. Who wants to live with regrets? Have fun. Cherish each moment you spend in laughter. People don't have to die to be gone from your life.~

Wow

Today was interesting. I got presents from random freshmen friends, which I totally adored. And Jon got me a Fur Real Friend panda bear. Which is uber cute.
I'm definitely, fer sure, nothing is going to stop me, switching out of AP English.
She is so mean, and I honestly don't even understand rhetoric to begin with.. how am I supposed to take an AP class on it?
I'm definitely staying in AP history though. I enjoy that class. History is fun for me.
Screw Ms. Amiel.
Anywho, I'm trying really hard in all my other classes.
Which I suppose is good.
Yesterday was my seventeenth birthday. I do not feel any older than I did last week.
Zachary came in and woke me up at seven in the morning yesterday. Five minutes later he brings in this humongous bear that I have yet to name. He is so soft, cuddly and big :] I love him.
Plus like a dozen roses.
He's too sweet :]
That pretty much made my day, I'm so glad I got to spend it with him.
My parentals gave me cashhhh.
w00t.
Stephanie is hitting the mall this weekend.
Anyways, I have math to finish so, I'm getting off.

Fuck it,

How could she be so stubborn?
Are you even listening, or are you so wrapped up in what you think is reality?
All I want is for you to be my friend.
Unconditionally.
I would never intentionally hurt you.
Nor hide things from you.
I have enough going on without you pulling this on me.
You need to realize that you're just taking your emotions out on me.
I haven't done anything wrong.
You make me feel so sad, when I have done nothing.
I just wish you were my old love duck.
I miss her so..

And this is how I feel about you...

What a lonely road

Well.
There are times when I feel like I'm on top of the world.
And there are days when I feel like giving up.
People can be such assholes..
Friday night was a football game against Sebastian River High. We won, 14 - 7.
Their band did really well.
Ours preformed the best we had all season, even with half of our members there.
That really ticks me off, others chose to skip and go trick or treating while the rest of us were stuck at that game. We didn't even get to wear costumes.
I mean, hello.
Band = dedication.
No dedication? Then why are you in band?
Esp the leadership that wasn't there.
What kind of leadership is that showing? Absolutely none at all.
I'm tired of people complaining so much about band also. If you have that much to complain about, then why are you still there? We don't want to hear it, or deal with it. So get lost.
So, we got Excellents at FBA.
My arrhythmia was acting up so bad after we preformed.
What that means is I have an irregular heartbeat pretty much. And I get really bad sharp pains in my chest.
Anyway, I nearly blacked out on the field. I could hardly breathe.
I spent Halloween morning with Zachary. <3
I baked a lot.
I've decided I'm moving to Miami after I graduate, to move in with Ari, Ria, and Lina.
w00t.
I'm happy with that :]
I'm majoring in Culinary & Music.
What a combo.
Well, I'm off to bed.
That's all I had to inform you guys of.
<3